Tag: Complex-PTSD
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When Existing Feels Far Too Much
I’m tired of existing. 20 months in hospital has taken away my freedom, my connection, and so much of my hope. I’m told I’m “too complex” to fit their boxes, so I’m left behind in a system that doesn’t know how to help me. My anxiety is spiralling, my depression is back, and my trauma…
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When Your Body and Mind Can’t Keep Up: A Day in the Life With Complex Trauma
Some days, the weight of trauma feels unbearable — not just emotionally, but physically. After spending so much time in survival mode, I’m learning how deeply my body holds onto pain. Living with Complex PTSD means navigating exhaustion, fear, and the grief of a life paused. This post is a raw reflection on what it…
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Sectioned and Scared.
I have been sectioned and I am Scared. I am Honest about my feelings in this post. The first Post of 2025 showing my reality right now.
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Life After Trauma: Lessons I Have Learned as a Suicide Survivor
On Monday 18th December 2023, Jordan faced a life-altering event when he attempted suicide but survived, leading to a year in hospital. Jordan reflects on his journey of healing, small achievements, and the importance of support. Despite struggles with trauma and uncertainty, Jordan expresses hope for the future and appreciation for life.
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Mind at War
Jordan describes an intense internal struggle, likening his life to an endless war. He faces relentless emotional attacks that leave him feeling exhausted and traumatised. Despite efforts to keep moving forward, he feels overwhelmed, wounded, and unable to heal. The ongoing conflict within his mind creates a painful existence, leading to despair.
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Motivation & Mental Health Act Assessments
Jordan reflects on a profound shift in motivation following a traumatic experience. Despite personal struggles, he expresses a desire to pursue a Psychology degree and help others. The internal conflict and fear of seeking mental health support underlines the complexity of his journey, revealing a deep sense of purpose and determination.
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Discovering Hope: From Desperation to Finding Joy in Books
In times of despair, reaching out for help is crucial. Even in the darkest moments, there’s hope. The future holds countless unknowns, and ending one’s life is not the solution. Despite struggles, finding joy in small things and connecting with supportive communities can ignite a flame of resilience. Hold on, the best surprises are yet…
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Feeling Disconnected: Coping with Emotions in a Strange World
Jordan expresses a deep sense of detachment from reality, feeling like an outsider observing a strange world. He experiences a lack of emotional connection, struggle to recognise familiar faces, and craves to feel grounded and alive. He fears never finding himself and longing for a sense of normality.
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Confronting Triggers: Finding Courage and Comfort with a Little Robin on the Rehab Ward Balcony
The writer, while on a rehab ward after a suicide attempt, struggled to face the ward balcony due to anxiety and triggering experiences. However, a robin’s consistent presence provided a sense of safety and encouragement, enabling small but significant steps towards facing outward again. With support from an occupational therapist, the writer used distractions and…
Jordan Beaven 