Category: General
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Why I’m Speaking Loudly About My Reality
800 days. That’s how long my life has been paused inside hospital walls. What started as survival has turned into exhaustion, trauma, and a body that can’t stay silent anymore. This is the reality of institutionalisation, seizures, and FND — and what happens when your “normal” was never normal to begin with. I’m speaking loudly…
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25: A Birthday I Never Thought I’d See
I didn’t think I would see 16. I shouldn’t have lived past 22. But today I’m 25. After three birthdays in hospital and a life shaped more by mental illness than anything else, this one feels complicated — grief, fear, survival, and the fragile hope of a second chance.
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Life Lately: Grey Skies and Heavy Feelings
Life lately is grey skies, heavy feelings, and the quiet fight to be understood. This post shares an honest look at sadness, autism, and what happens when support systems miss the mark.
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New Year 2026 Reflections: Personal Growth, Healing, and Gentle Living
An honest New Year 2026 reflection on healing, personal growth, mental health, and choosing a gentler way of living one day at a time.
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Hospital Chronicles: Day 726 — Two Years in Hospital, Recovery, Disability & Hope
Day 726 in hospital. Uncertain scans, slow progress, fragile mental health, and another Christmas spent behind hospital walls — reflecting on loss, survival, and the quiet hope found in small steps forward.
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Burnout, Meltdowns, and Learning Myself All Over Again (Again)
Lately, I’ve been deep in autistic burnout—navigating meltdowns, shutdowns, and the overwhelm that comes from sensory overload and doing too much. I’m learning to recognise the signs, separate mental health crises from autistic responses, and find ways to soothe myself before I hit breaking point. This post is a raw reflection on that journey, plus…
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Sectioned and Scared.
I have been sectioned and I am Scared. I am Honest about my feelings in this post. The first Post of 2025 showing my reality right now.
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Life After Trauma: Lessons I Have Learned as a Suicide Survivor
On Monday 18th December 2023, Jordan faced a life-altering event when he attempted suicide but survived, leading to a year in hospital. Jordan reflects on his journey of healing, small achievements, and the importance of support. Despite struggles with trauma and uncertainty, Jordan expresses hope for the future and appreciation for life.
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Mind at War
Jordan describes an intense internal struggle, likening his life to an endless war. He faces relentless emotional attacks that leave him feeling exhausted and traumatised. Despite efforts to keep moving forward, he feels overwhelmed, wounded, and unable to heal. The ongoing conflict within his mind creates a painful existence, leading to despair.
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Book Review: The Guilty Patient by Luana Lewis
In “The Guilty Patient,” a pregnant woman grapples with the belief that she killed her best friend, Alice, during a weekend trip. As she unveils memories with her therapist, it becomes clear that everyone has different accounts of the events leading to Alice’s death. This psychological thriller offers unexpected twists and intense self-discovery.
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Tea Leaves & Reads: A Community’s Gift of Kindness
Receiving a bookish random act of kindness was the best part of a bad week! Read this Post to know more about who sent it and what it contains!
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Motivation & Mental Health Act Assessments
Jordan reflects on a profound shift in motivation following a traumatic experience. Despite personal struggles, he expresses a desire to pursue a Psychology degree and help others. The internal conflict and fear of seeking mental health support underlines the complexity of his journey, revealing a deep sense of purpose and determination.
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Discovering Hope: From Desperation to Finding Joy in Books
In times of despair, reaching out for help is crucial. Even in the darkest moments, there’s hope. The future holds countless unknowns, and ending one’s life is not the solution. Despite struggles, finding joy in small things and connecting with supportive communities can ignite a flame of resilience. Hold on, the best surprises are yet…
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Confronting Triggers: Finding Courage and Comfort with a Little Robin on the Rehab Ward Balcony
The writer, while on a rehab ward after a suicide attempt, struggled to face the ward balcony due to anxiety and triggering experiences. However, a robin’s consistent presence provided a sense of safety and encouragement, enabling small but significant steps towards facing outward again. With support from an occupational therapist, the writer used distractions and…
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Book Review #1: Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney
This book receives a five-star rating from Jordan for its gripping story and emotional depth. It delves into real-life issues and captivates readers with poetic and smooth writing, filled with constant twists and surprises. Jordan highly recommends it, emphasizing its powerful impact and ability to keep readers engaged until the end.
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