Category: General
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Living With Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension.
It’s often described as “just a headache” but, living with Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension feels like so much more. This is what it’s really like to live with the pressure, the symptoms, and the parts of an invisible condition that are hardest to explain — but impossible to ignore.
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They Said It Was a Miracle I Survived… This Is the Reality
They called it a miracle that I survived — but no one talks about what comes after. Nearly three years later, I’m still living in hospital, navigating trauma, disability, and the reality of losing everything I once knew as life.
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Easter Bank Holiday Reflections.
Being told I ‘look well’ felt different, a testament to progress and resilience.
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Mounjaro Diaries: Autism, Food Guilt & Why Communication Matters in Healthcare
A difficult day on Mounjaro that reminded me how powerful communication can be — especially when you’re autistic, take things literally, and are already navigating a complicated relationship with food.
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When the Mental Health System Costs You Everything: Losing My Home After Long-Term Hospitalisation
After years of psychiatric hospitals, homelessness, and finally getting my own flat, I never imagined long-term hospitalisation would cost me my home. This is the reality of surviving while stuck inside the system.
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Why I’m Speaking Loudly About My Reality
800 days. That’s how long my life has been paused inside hospital walls. What started as survival has turned into exhaustion, trauma, and a body that can’t stay silent anymore. This is the reality of institutionalisation, seizures, and FND — and what happens when your “normal” was never normal to begin with. I’m speaking loudly…
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25: A Birthday I Never Thought I’d See
I didn’t think I would see 16. I shouldn’t have lived past 22. But today I’m 25. After three birthdays in hospital and a life shaped more by mental illness than anything else, this one feels complicated — grief, fear, survival, and the fragile hope of a second chance.
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Life Lately: Grey Skies and Heavy Feelings
Life lately is grey skies, heavy feelings, and the quiet fight to be understood. This post shares an honest look at sadness, autism, and what happens when support systems miss the mark.
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New Year 2026 Reflections: Personal Growth, Healing, and Gentle Living
An honest New Year 2026 reflection on healing, personal growth, mental health, and choosing a gentler way of living one day at a time.
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Hospital Chronicles: Day 726 — Two Years in Hospital, Recovery, Disability & Hope
Day 726 in hospital. Uncertain scans, slow progress, fragile mental health, and another Christmas spent behind hospital walls — reflecting on loss, survival, and the quiet hope found in small steps forward.
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Burnout, Meltdowns, and Learning Myself All Over Again (Again)
Lately, I’ve been deep in autistic burnout—navigating meltdowns, shutdowns, and the overwhelm that comes from sensory overload and doing too much. I’m learning to recognise the signs, separate mental health crises from autistic responses, and find ways to soothe myself before I hit breaking point. This post is a raw reflection on that journey, plus…
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Sectioned and Scared.
I have been sectioned and I am Scared. I am Honest about my feelings in this post. The first Post of 2025 showing my reality right now.
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Life After Trauma: Lessons I Have Learned as a Suicide Survivor
On Monday 18th December 2023, Jordan faced a life-altering event when he attempted suicide but survived, leading to a year in hospital. Jordan reflects on his journey of healing, small achievements, and the importance of support. Despite struggles with trauma and uncertainty, Jordan expresses hope for the future and appreciation for life.
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Mind at War
Jordan describes an intense internal struggle, likening his life to an endless war. He faces relentless emotional attacks that leave him feeling exhausted and traumatised. Despite efforts to keep moving forward, he feels overwhelmed, wounded, and unable to heal. The ongoing conflict within his mind creates a painful existence, leading to despair.
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Book Review: The Guilty Patient by Luana Lewis
In “The Guilty Patient,” a pregnant woman grapples with the belief that she killed her best friend, Alice, during a weekend trip. As she unveils memories with her therapist, it becomes clear that everyone has different accounts of the events leading to Alice’s death. This psychological thriller offers unexpected twists and intense self-discovery.
Jordan Beaven 