Tag: PTSD
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Why I’m Speaking Loudly About My Reality
800 days. That’s how long my life has been paused inside hospital walls. What started as survival has turned into exhaustion, trauma, and a body that can’t stay silent anymore. This is the reality of institutionalisation, seizures, and FND — and what happens when your “normal” was never normal to begin with. I’m speaking loudly…
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When Existing Feels Far Too Much
I’m tired of existing. 20 months in hospital has taken away my freedom, my connection, and so much of my hope. I’m told I’m “too complex” to fit their boxes, so I’m left behind in a system that doesn’t know how to help me. My anxiety is spiralling, my depression is back, and my trauma…
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When Your Body and Mind Can’t Keep Up: A Day in the Life With Complex Trauma
Some days, the weight of trauma feels unbearable — not just emotionally, but physically. After spending so much time in survival mode, I’m learning how deeply my body holds onto pain. Living with Complex PTSD means navigating exhaustion, fear, and the grief of a life paused. This post is a raw reflection on what it…
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Feeling Disconnected: Coping with Emotions in a Strange World
Jordan expresses a deep sense of detachment from reality, feeling like an outsider observing a strange world. He experiences a lack of emotional connection, struggle to recognise familiar faces, and craves to feel grounded and alive. He fears never finding himself and longing for a sense of normality.
Jordan Beaven 